Ayham Kader's Bio

Ayham Kader is a Holistic Dialoguer & Artist

8 years as a DJ

3 years as a Music Producer

10 years as a Mambo Dancer

7 years as a spoken word performer

11 years as a Business Consultant, Auditor (External & Internal) and risk manager

5 years as a Coach

2 years as an Educator

3 years as a Dialoguer

SUMMARY

What started as means of thriving and improving one's life continued to morph into itself as the story that I was told and consequently the story I keep telling and building for myself.

Whatever was achieved, professionally or spiritually, did not deliver the sanctification, satisfaction or the happiness I know for a fact is missing. So this was the beginning, and now it is my everyday in living; to see whatever is going as long as I am alive for.

BACKGROUND STORY

Ayham managed not to study in a field of his passion due to various limitations that were present at the time. Instead, he studied finance, justified by the following articulated argument: If I can't do what I love then I am going to do something easy that brings good money.

Starting a career that extended for a straight 11 year period, his salary doubled every 2 to 3 years. He, later on, realised that money was not enough to make him feel content.

So, he grew interested in self awareness and what it meant to be happy. After a period of self exploration he studied with ILS 'Inner Life Skills' for a 6 month master coach program to be a life coach in year 2016.

This led him to move to Berlin to study music production. A step that was once believed to manifest a career that he is passionate about, since his hobby was Deejaying to begin with. Yet what took place was a series of panic attacks that lasted for 6 months due to the radical change. But at that point he crossed paths, again, with Jiddu Krishnamurti and, later on, David Bohm. He grew interested and invested in understanding whatever was at question then and there which is now here as well with him: The ever so unexplainable suffering of living no matter what one does.

His graduation thesis was called 'Self Expression and Beyond'. The paper concluded with an EP and a question: Am I expressing myself, or simply expressing an idea I have of myself? Refer to Music Releases for the EP.

And since then, 2020 September, he got introduced to Dialogue groups and started partaking in collective dialogues that jump started his, now called, 'Tripute' the holistic outlet.

ORIGINS

Don’t know from where to start, a low note or a high one. 
What seems necessary is not for another
Not for you, so why bother you 
I was always trying to help 
Yet
Just like those who can’t correct themselves, I ended up seeking to correct others 
All that confusion and tastelessness of life, where can I take it to
For it to make sense 
All the overthinking, all the rejection, all the loneliness and boredom
Overwhelmed I was 
I tried this and tried that only to end up at the door step of myself saying: 
Here you go again, back where you started. As if you have never left 
I am not here for you, I am here for me
What else can I offer but the key that ended my misery. 
It is not a secret, and now I keep saying, internally:
How come it is not common knowledge 
How tragic that it is not common knowledge by now
So It was unavoidable
Unavoidable to live your story and to go through your pain, was it actual or not, was it logical or not. 
Because I now know
I know I can’t help you
But I woke up to listen
No 
I have to listen 
Because it is clear that I don’t
I don’t know what it is to be you and to have your circumstances 
I actually don’t know me all that well either 
But if I learned one thing, it is this
It is okay that I don’t
Actually 
It is beautiful that I don’t know 
Its magnificent that I would never know
The known is dead
And here we are with a question that is ever so living

what does it mean to be alive?


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