Ayham Kader's Bio

SUMMARY

What started as means of thriving and improving one's life continued to morph onto itself as the story that he was told, and consequently, the story he kept telling and building for himself.

Whatever was achieved - professionally or socially - did not deliver the sanctification, satisfaction or the happiness he knew for a fact was missing. So this was the beginning; and now it is his everyday in living: to see whatever is going on as long as he is alive.

BACKGROUND STORY

Ayham managed not to study in a field of his passion due to various limitations that were present at the time. Instead, he studied finance, justified by the following articulated argument: If I can't do what I love then I am going to do something easy that brings good money.

Starting a career that extended for a straight 11 year period, his salary doubled every 2 to 3 years. He, later on, realised that money was not enough to make him feel content.

He grew interested in self awareness/exploration and mind-altering/ psychedelic substances. After a period of self exploration he studied with ILS 'Inner Life Skills' for a 6 month master coach program to be a life coach in year 2016.

Out of that, a move to Berlin to study music production manifested. A step that was once believed to manifest a career that he is passionate about, since his hobby was Deejaying to begin with. Yet what took place was a series of panic attacks, waking up and sleeping with, that lasted for 6 months due to the radical change. But at that point he crossed paths, again, with Jiddu Krishnamurti and, later on, David Bohm. He grew interested and invested in understanding whatever was at question then and there which is now with him: The ever so unexplained suffering and limitation of living no matter what one does.

His 2020 graduation's thesis was called 'Self Expression and Beyond'. The paper concluded with an EP and a question: Am I expressing myself, or simply expressing an idea I have of myself? For more about Ayham's artistic profile follow this link.

And since then, 2020 September, he got introduced to Dialogue groups and started partaking which jump started Tripute, as the holistic collective it, now, is.

As a result, Holistic Dialogue (HD) started the foundation for all of his and Tripute's endeavors.

July 2023 marked the release of SYNOPSIS, an experimental space for a seeing together that is not concerned with meeting and moving together. And with this he feels the foundation is now complete for a life not led by consciousness.

ORIGINS

Don’t know from where to start, a low note or a high one. 

What seems necessary is not for another

Not for you, so why bother you 

I was always trying to help 

Yet

Just like those who can’t correct themselves, I ended up seeking to correct others 

All that confusion and tastelessness of life, where can I take it to

For it to make sense 

All the overthinking, all the rejection, all the loneliness and boredom

Overwhelmed I was 

I tried this and tried that only to end up at the door step of myself saying: 

Here you go again, back where you started. As if you have never left 

I am not here for you, I am here for me!

What else can I offer but the key that ended my misery. 

It is not a secret, and now I keep saying, internally:

How come it is not common knowledge 

How tragic that it is not common knowledge by now

So It was unavoidable

Unavoidable to live your story and to go through your pain, was it actual or not, was it logical or not. 

Because I now know

I know I can’t help you

But I woke up to listen

No 

I have to listen!

Because it is clear that I don’t

I don’t know what it is to be you and to have your circumstances 

I actually don’t know me all that well either 

But if I learned one thing, it is this

It is okay that I don’t

Actually 

It is beautiful that I don’t know 

Its magnificent that I would never know

The known is dead

And here we are, with a question that is ever so living

What does it mean to be alive...?